Relationships are built on agreements and when we break promises, relationships are strained. On the other hand, when we make agreements, relationships flourish. You create your life for the most part, by the agreements you make. It’s up to us which commitments we choose to keep and which ones we choose to avoid. This is why “promise” is a big word to me, it motivates me to actually take action to what I have plan on doing in life, rather than using words that doesn’t sound so convincing like, (I must, I should, I have to, etc.). Promising is where we bridge from possibility and planning to action. By promising we intend to change our behavior and will bring good things in our lives. Just never doubt yourself! Believe in yourself and know you can do it all!
I called my grandma today and it has been a while now. I haven’t seen her since the time I went to the Philippines back in 2009. I just love how we would always have these conversation that would make me want to cry. Every time I ask her how she’s doing, she would always tell me that she’s doing everything to stay healthy, so she could watch all her grand kids grow up and live with a successful life. She would always tell me to take care of myself and my parents. And one thing that she told me today that got me was, “Be Patient, as long as have patience God will lead you to the right path and will give you guidance. God knows good people will live a successful life, just never forget you have him by your side.” Oh How I miss my grandma so much. She taught me so much, and I wouldn’t forget all the good memories we have had together. I love you Grandma!
So, It’s been a while since I’ve been active with any of my social network and even social life. When I do go on my social network, I tend to just check if I have a message or I would scroll down my timeline to see what’s been up. But, other than that I tend to distant myself away from everyone. I mean, these past few years I’ve been focusing on others, trying to help them out with there problems and maybe, it’s about time for me to just step back and focus on myself. To be honest, I am happy where I am standing now. I don’t need a lot of friends for me to be happy. Even though it’s great to meet new people and have a lot of friends, but what’s the use if they just come and go. I’m just tired of trying to make new friends and they’re just there for temporary. Temporary people will make temporary efforts to stay in your life. I started with few friends and those are the people that I should just pay more attention. Even though my social life is so died right now, it’s okay because I’m happy and that’s what matters the most.
This year so far has been good to me. Things had happened unexpectedly. Like, getting a job at Benihana as a host and getting my driver’s licensed. I just like were I’m heading in life, and I thank you God for leading me to the right path. School wise, I am also doing fine. I am still learning how to manage my time and getting my work done. I like all my classes, specially my learn 11 class because I could use it in my daily life and I could relate to all the things we talk about in class. I also learned so much about myself and how I can improve my weaknesses and overcome my fear. My life is literally focus with my school and work. I honestly don’t even have a social life, but it’s okay. I think it’s better to be by myself for now and get away from those things that didn’t work out from the past. It’s not an easy battle, I could tell you that, but I could say, as long as you are motivated and you stay positive, things will go smoothly in your life. You are the only one that knows what you want in life and what makes you happy, right? So never doubt and make yourself as an excuse. Get up! And it’s time for you to take action! Things are possible if you make it happen! Don’t just tell yourself and make promises, JUST DO IT! ( :
December is my favorite month of the year. It’s only not my birthday month, but it’s also Christmas. Every time December comes, It always gets me the feeling of excitement and how the year is finally coming to an end. It’s the month where I could just look back to all the things I’ve been through, throughout the year and how I’ve survived the year standing tall and strong. It’s the time where I find out who have stayed in my life and who I would be taking with me for this upcoming year. And for those who have have walked by me and decided to just stay strangers. I wouldn’t regret them for leaving because from those times that gone by, I’ve learned so much from each one of them and it made me the person who I am now. It’s also the time where I forgive everyone, specially for those who have done me wrong and for those who caused me the most pain. I would forgive all of you! I have a kind heart, and I just have to let go all of those bad memories and start all over again. It doesn’t mean that I would make the same mistakes again, it’s just the time where I just don’t want to hold any anger at anybody. It’s also the time where I will change the things that didn’t work out for me before and find another way to make things right. There are so many options that we can do to makes things right! So take risk, live life, and enjoy the upcoming new year. Like they say, “New Year, New Me!”.
The only thing I can think to myself is how can I seem so perfectly fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I’m not okay? Am I getting better or am I just used to the pain I always go through every single time. I’m really just tire of it, every time something good happens, something bad comes along, even worse.
“When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.”
Telling someone how you really feel is honestly the hardest thing to do ever. I just get worry sometimes because you just don’t know what that person is going to say, react and feel about what you’re going to tell them. You tend to have these thoughts in your mind, whether they might ignore you after or you might push them away, or maybe they will soon to have this awkwardness around you. You’re just clueless! But at the same time, You really want to tell them the truth and express them how you really feel because I’m not that type of person who would want hide anything from someone, specially when they are really important to you. Even though how good or bad it is, I just tend to tell them what’s true and move on from that. I’m really a straight-forward person and I just want to be one of those people who would want to show others that there are still honest people out there.
I just wanted to tell you guys that you guys are amazing. I wanted to thank you for giving me your time to go to my blog and read some of my post(s); for liking, re-blogging and for giving me inputs/comments on them. I appreciate that a lot and it means a lot to me. It makes my day when some of you guys would compliment my blog and when you guys respond to my post(s). Specially, those who reads my daily day post and would leave me an inbox to see how I’m doing and all. But yeah, just wanted to give a shout out to all of you and a big thanks! This is were I mostly vent and write what’s on my mind. And if you just are curious about what I do everyday, You can read my DAILY BLOG POSTS, and I also do everyday CONFESSION. And yeah, If you guys haven’t notice yet, I also started a new blog called MY FUTURE ONE which basically writing to my soul-mate, and still hoping to find that right person.
These feelings that you called “indescribable”, that seems to take over everything what’s around you. I don’t really know what it is about you that makes me smile and happy. But that feeling where you just want to scream and let everyone know how amazing you are. Seeing your amazing smiles and hearing your charming voice just urges me to wake in the morning happy and have a productive day. It’s just ironic to me how we know so many things about each other and happened in just a day and to have this crazy feelings that we can’t even explain. I’m just hoping that what we now, would last long and will never change because I don’t want to put myself in that position again where “It’s always good at the beginning and ends up bad later”.